162 wivesbehavingbadly

the phone rang ." i don't know what to say ."
"you don't have to say anything , roger ."
"i assume it was his heart ."
i put down the phone , which rang back almost immediatly ." if there is anything we can do , it shall be done ," said roger ." please , will you let us know when the funeral is ? minty , i recognize that this is the most tragic , intolerable situation ."
was this the moment to point out that roger had made such a mistake in dismissing nathna 's accumlation of experience for the sake of change ? should i also mention that he had almost certainly driven nathna to his death ?
"i know you will have mixed feelings...."
"no, roger . not  mixed feelings . very straightforward feelings .
"we were doing what was best for vistemax ."
"peter shaker ? really ?"
there was nothing mopre to add . roger was a businessman , and i was a widow and , however much i might long to connect , there was no no chance , again , i terminated the conversation and took the phne off the hook . not a moment too soon  , for it was almost too much , and i could not let go . not yet perhaps never  ?
the vacuuming drilled into my skull . i called out ," eve . could you stop that ?"
she appeared  out of the sitting room ." you need clean house , mitny  . people will come ."
would they ?
" you look bad , mitny . i get you cup of tea ."
i sat at nathan 's desk , holding the cup and wondering how long my fingers could stand the pain . that was easydeal with -