, sam and poppy suffered . you may think that they were too old , but they weren't and they did , i blame you and nathn for that . there was nothing , i could do to help them . you can't inflict your anger and regret on your children ." she twirled her glass between her fingers ." i won't let you ."
a tiny pulse beat in rose's temple and , no doubt , one did in mine . i fixed on the blank television screen in the corner of the room ." i'm truly sorry about poppy and sam ." for good measure , i threw in , " poppy has taken it out on me . she's a fighter ."
rose bent down and picked up a mother -of-pearl button from the carpet ." thast 's poppy for you . and sam ? he's strugling a bit at the moment . i am a little worried about him and jilly ...i want to be around to help , but i'm busy , earning a living and getting on with my life , and they have to sort themselve out . ." her voice was tender ." much ....much as i love them ." the tenderness excluded me . she continued in a kinder voice ." grief saps the confidence , minty . i can tell you that . but itt can be fine , in the end . believe me ." she gestured at the room ." when nathan left , i felt i'd failed myself and the children , but i survived . it took blood and tears , but i did it ." she balanced the button on the palm of her hand ." nathan did what he wanted to do . i xfailed to see that he was changing as he grew older . and why shouldn't he have changed ? it was his right . but i didn't see it then . so , it was not all your fault , you know ."
rose was letting me off the hook , a little . the wine had loosened my tongue ." roger and gisela gard came to dinner once . believe it or not , i was playing office politics . one of the twins was naughty , and it was nathan who deal with it . i saw roger watching nathan , i could almost hear him thinking .
a tiny pulse beat in rose's temple and , no doubt , one did in mine . i fixed on the blank television screen in the corner of the room ." i'm truly sorry about poppy and sam ." for good measure , i threw in , " poppy has taken it out on me . she's a fighter ."
rose bent down and picked up a mother -of-pearl button from the carpet ." thast 's poppy for you . and sam ? he's strugling a bit at the moment . i am a little worried about him and jilly ...i want to be around to help , but i'm busy , earning a living and getting on with my life , and they have to sort themselve out . ." her voice was tender ." much ....much as i love them ." the tenderness excluded me . she continued in a kinder voice ." grief saps the confidence , minty . i can tell you that . but itt can be fine , in the end . believe me ." she gestured at the room ." when nathan left , i felt i'd failed myself and the children , but i survived . it took blood and tears , but i did it ." she balanced the button on the palm of her hand ." nathan did what he wanted to do . i xfailed to see that he was changing as he grew older . and why shouldn't he have changed ? it was his right . but i didn't see it then . so , it was not all your fault , you know ."
rose was letting me off the hook , a little . the wine had loosened my tongue ." roger and gisela gard came to dinner once . believe it or not , i was playing office politics . one of the twins was naughty , and it was nathan who deal with it . i saw roger watching nathan , i could almost hear him thinking .
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