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Wednesday, September 12, 2012

303 wivesbehavingbadly

. i threw myself into administration . i wrote letters to the bank . i had several long conversation with theo , i researched addiction counselors . i paid bills . i rearranged the furniture in the sitting room and my bedroom  so that  the house took on a different aspect . nathan 's study had been transformed into a cozy , feminine space . my papers were on the notice board  school rotas . work schedules  , those lists .
my clothes occupied the total space avaible in'on the wardrobes  / dtrawers / pegs . my bottles  occupied the shelf in the bathroom . upstairs in the attic  a cardboard box contained nathan 's razor , a shaving brush made  from badgerss' hair a hair brush and a new comb still  in its  plastic wrapping . there they would wait until i gave them to felix and lucas .
i lay awake and cvounted the ghosts . i had been wrong . there  it some kind of justice for no one ever escape anyone else . nathan  never got away from rose . rose never got away from hal . rose and i never got away from each other .
after rose had been sacked at books editor , and i had taken over , iplotted how  cleverly  i would achieve a transformation and spice up the pages and transform them . my books pages  would fizz with new ideas . yet when  timom sacked me  , he damned my efforts . " in the end  , minty   , you hadn't done anyting to write home  about . your pages were nothing new ."
rose tld me that the suffered torment and anguish over hal , her first lover . but thee memoies also held moments of such sweetness and ectasy that she carried them with her aways . i do not posses memories such as those , but rose's were like fragrant saches tucked into a frawer . i envied her .
my reply to rose took me a long time to write , and the words were bottlenecked at the end of my pen ." would you like to come to sports day at the boys ' school ?"

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