314 wivesbehavingbadly

. i was ashamed and devastated by the revelation , and also , curiously , calm because everything was now crytal clear .
nathan would never let go of hs past life . could never let go .
he followed me into the litchen ." minty , this has got to stop , i can't pretend i didn't have poppy , and sam ."
"no ," i said .
upstair , one or other of the twins called out . as one , nathan and i turned our head in thedirection of the child's cry .
" you or me ?" asked nathan .
on that at least we were united .
now , in the kitchen , i ran hot water inti the sink , and plunged my chilled hands into it , then i boiled the kettle and took a cup of chamomile tea up to bed .
i swtched off the light  and lay down . after a while . i put out my arm and let it rest in the space that nathan should have occupied .
rose did not reply to the messagesd i left on her answere phone .
i allowed two days to elapse . after that , i took myself round to her flat  after work .
she answereed the door . she was dressed in a skirt i recognized from prada , a leopard -print cardigan , and a necklace of large wooden heads , she looked wonderful and not very surprised ." i suspected you'd turn up , sooner or later ."
she did not invite me in , so i summoned my best brand of gall ." you didn't answere my calls . i've come to sort things out ."
rose kept her hand on the door , and said ," rose , if we get this over and done with , then it will be over and done with "
eventually she stepped aside ."  come in ."