. " i want to say sorry to you ," i confessed ." i did not realiz what i did until i had married nathan and had the boys . then it all looked different , particularly when i grasped how disapointed nathan was at times . he used to looked at me sometimes , and i could see how he hated what he'd done . it wasn't that he didn't care for me , but that he ealized how much he cared for the things that he had discarded ."
nathan had used rose badly . i had used rose badly . and i already knew the full import one's trnsgression do not really hit home until years after the event . the manuals don't mention that one , it was probably too complicated a suject for them to tackle .
" poor minty ," said rose , and her irony cut me to the quick . she remembered hunchedover her wine ." you were welcome to him ." she admitted ." he had hurt me so much . sometimes , i i thought i ewould die of the hurt . but you know the aphorism : this too will pass ? it's true - it does .. thank god . when he turned up here on the day he died , i disdn't make him particularly welcome . actually , i didn't want him here .i was busy . he could see that and was disappointed . but you know . i didn't feel i had any reason to put myself out . i had spent so long shaking free . and nathan's problem were not mine ...i could no longer engage with him , not unwanted as you are dying is a terrible hard fact ....
she gave a choking sound ." for god's sake . he left me , for you . remember ?" she turned an anguished face toward me " remember ?"
"i i think of it most of the time . never more so than now . rose made a visible effort ." you have the twins , to...sider .
nathan had used rose badly . i had used rose badly . and i already knew the full import one's trnsgression do not really hit home until years after the event . the manuals don't mention that one , it was probably too complicated a suject for them to tackle .
" poor minty ," said rose , and her irony cut me to the quick . she remembered hunchedover her wine ." you were welcome to him ." she admitted ." he had hurt me so much . sometimes , i i thought i ewould die of the hurt . but you know the aphorism : this too will pass ? it's true - it does .. thank god . when he turned up here on the day he died , i disdn't make him particularly welcome . actually , i didn't want him here .i was busy . he could see that and was disappointed . but you know . i didn't feel i had any reason to put myself out . i had spent so long shaking free . and nathan's problem were not mine ...i could no longer engage with him , not unwanted as you are dying is a terrible hard fact ....
she gave a choking sound ." for god's sake . he left me , for you . remember ?" she turned an anguished face toward me " remember ?"
"i i think of it most of the time . never more so than now . rose made a visible effort ." you have the twins , to...sider .
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