gain , i recollected deb's nasty expression . " i don't think part- time works ."
he pulled out the plug . greasy and cold , the water drained away ." i know it doesn't , but the boys need you . it seems to me that yoy have a good balance with what you have got ."
"i need to work and i think i would do better at paradox if i was full time ."
he nooded , and wiped down the draining board with a cloth . " you see that as your priority ?"
" i do , it will be okay , nathan , i promise . it's not so difficult . thousands of women do it ." i slid my arms around his waist and made him turn around to face me ." surely , you're not surprised ?"
" no . " he moved out of my reach ." i had an idea you might be thinking along those lines ."
why hadn't he said something ? " don't make me sound like a monster who abandons her children . i need to do something property . you do see ?" i thought of the ideas landing in my lap . i would nurture them , made them grow , and watch them fly .
" don't you put your heart and soul into your sons ?" nathan gave me a long slow appraisal , and all our differences were refected in that scrutiny , " i'm tired ." he rubbed his eyes ." let 's go to bed ."
i stared at him , trying to read beyond the set look on his face . what could i say to diddoleve those differences ? somewhere - and i could not place my finger on it - i had lost my hold on the essential nathan , the one who had tumbled so willingly into my grasp .
one by one , i turned off the lights , and the kitchen slid into darkness , " i have decided , nathan ."
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