217 wivesbehavingbadly

. i was when , like nathan , my father died unexpectedly . actually , i was more than angry , i was outraged , but i want to say , anger will weaken you , minty , as it weakened me when nathan decided our marriage was over . i suspewct you might be thinking : how dare nathan leave it all to me . you might a living and keeping the children ..."
the word "children " appeared especially black on the white paper .
" you may also be thinking as you read this that i am being indelicate and unsubtle , and interfering . but i thought i would take the risk ."
rose was inviting me to filter my grief through her . i had slept in her bed and she was sleeping in mine ." but it won't do , rose , " i murmured into the empty study . above all , and above everything , i owned nathan direct , undiluted grief that i must grant him . and i would i did .
"welcome back ." barry looled up  from the stuffed filofax . " we've miss you ." he was wearing his leather blouson jacket , but he had added to the red kabbalah wristband a  couple of others in pastel colors .
he sound as if he mean it . a lump wedged itself in my throat , but i managed a weak wave in his directtion as i disappeared into my office . in my absence , it had been swept and cleaned . tow polite mountains of paper sat on the desk .
"hallo ." deb walked lightly into the room ." how are you ?"
" i i hope i'm managing ."