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Friday, July 20, 2012

203 WIVESBEHAVINGBADLY

"deadly quite ."
nathan had been dead for two weeks and the doorbell no longer rang innumberable times every morning .  there were no more deliveries of flowers  . the boys , , eve and i had worked our way through soups and other offerings unfamiliar containers that at one point clogged up the fridge .
the boys' understanding of the situation fluctuated  . " daddy 's gone to a nice place , " lucas announced to eve . but every so ofen , the grasp modified and slipped  . several times since nathan's death , i had worken to discover a pair of unblinking eyes observing me  , and one or the other  of them burrowed  like a velvery mole into the safety  of my bed ,  they seesawed  between understyanding and bewildment ,  and it made them ragged tempered and uncertain . " where is daddy ?" felix had demanded at breakfast .
paige hefted the basket into the utility room and checked  on the contents of the oven  . " you could do with  a hot meal , " she said , how does a fish  stew grab you ? "
i was halfway through a plateful when the storm hit me out of nowhere  . chewing on a fat  , pink prawn  , i felt  sweat break out  on the soles  of my feet  , and a rush of rage , the likes  of which i had rarely experienced . " how dare nathan die ?" i dropped  my fork andd pushed the plate  to one side . " i'm so angry with him for leaving us  . what was he thinking of not seeing ti his heart  ? was it willfulness ? fatalism .
" that 's better , " said paige . she bent over and wiped away a drop of stew by my plate . " you have a good hate  . i always tell the cildren it is best to get it out of the system  ." she become deadly serous  . " i mean it  . you must not bottle it all up .
paige always favored the get-it-out-of-your-system appproach .

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